Tag: self
Addressing God, he writes, ‘And where was I when I was seeking for you? You were there, in front of me; but I had gone away even from myself. I could not even find myself, much less find you’

Adrian Piper, Food for The Spirit, 1971
In the summer of 1971, Adrian Piper performed Food for the Spirit in her New York loft. She sequestered herself away and spent her days reading Immanuel Kant’s Critique of Pure Reason (1781), doing yoga, reading, writing, and fasting. Her immersion in the Critique was so intense that at times she sensed she might be disappearing. To counteract this perception and to document her engagement with Kant, she periodically photographed herself standing in front of a mirror while chanting excerpts of the text that made her question her material existence. Food for the Spirit is a pivotal work in the history of conceptual art. Much of Piper’s work from this period employed formats and strategies of conceptual art while engaging social and gender disparities that were all but excluded from that discourse. Piper projected a sense of self onto the rational and serial forms of conceptual art, constituting a radical break with its characteristic detachment. Her repeated self-confrontation marks an effort to ground her understanding of Kantian transcendence in personal experience, while also introducing a glimmer of identity politics into the impersonal matrix of first-generation conceptual art.
Simone Weil from Gravity and Grace
I can easily imagine that [God] loves that perspective of creation that
can only be seen from the point where I am. But I act as a screen.
I must withdraw so that he might see it.
I must withdraw so that God might enter into contact with the
beings whom chance places in my path and so that he might love me.
My presence is indiscreet, as though I found myself between two lov-
ers or two friends. I am not the maiden who awaits her betrothed but
the unwelcome third who is with the two lovers and who ought to go
away so that they can really be together.
If I only knew how to disappear, there would be a perfect union of
love between God and the earth I tread, the sea I hear …
That I might disappear so that those things that I see may become
perfectly beautiful from the fact that they are no longer things that I
see.
I do not in the least wish that this created world should no longer
be perceptible, but that it should no longer be me to whom it is per-
ceptible. To me it cannot tell its secret which is too high. That I might
leave, then the creator and the creature will exchange their secrets.
To see a landscape as it is when I am not there …
ELBIETA KOTKOWSKA from “Simone Weil’s Questions about God”
The self is only the shadow which sin and error cast by stopping the light of God, and I take this shadow for a being.

elaine kahn
The world, as such, is understood as an ever-folding and unfolding multiplicity, of the infinite number of monads of which it is composed: a world is as many monads as it takes to make a world.


Kathy Acker | Devoured by Myths: An Interview with Sylvère Lotringer | Hannibal Lecter, My Father
Performing yourself should fit like a well-tailored suit. Should feel loose in the shoulders, should feel natural stop conflating acting with insincerity as if honesty exists

